A mess called my life

Well that is what it is. My life has been really in a mess ever since the Americans dumped the entire world into what they call as recession. But it has started reaching new lows in the recent weeks. Initially I thought that it was tracking the sensex (the BSE Index). But unfortunately it doesn’t seem to be, coz when the market improved yesterday, my life has continued its downward spiral.

My work… I know I have cribbed a lot to all the people I can over chats, phone or face to face too. But still I continue. I feel I am just a tester in this organization, whose work is to work on the demos, test whether it is working, give demos and get blasted by the boss during all these activities. And blasting includes all the profanities which will put even those ppl who had gone through hostel life to shame.

Well imagine being in a 8 hour demo through telecon and webex for a client in middle east and your boss coming and blasting u every half an hour. Most of the stuffs which we get to hear cannot be even pasted over here. So you are there for 8 hours missing your lunch and all you get to hear is profanities from your boss, even though the client is happy. And then he realizes we haven’t eaten, gets us 4 biscuits each and a tea and blasts us more.

And then the next day have to work for 15 hours … doing what??? Testing some damn demo. It is more like I have moved from being a developer to a tester after 2 years of MBA. For ppl who have seen a sad bollywood movie called Sunday, my position is similar to the protagonist there. Only thing is I am missing 2 years of my life, only reminded of it because of the EMI of the loan which I have to pay back for the 2 lost years of my life. And all these because some damn idiots thought of making quick money in a far off land by selling loans to people who did not deserve it.

Nowadays I am thinking if I have lost these 2 years may be I should do another 1 year MBA from a foreign university, just so that these people can recognize that I am an MBA grad. But then again, I would be reminded of the difficulty in getting into the institute with the resume I have and the cost which I have to bear. Especially since I have not yet paid back the cost of my 2 lost years

Now add to this mix the housing dilemma. Initially there were 4 of us who were staying in the house. We did not pay the advance for the house, but we were paying the rent and the expenses in the house. Now 2 of the 4 have left and it is just the 2 of us remaining. These people have collected the rent for the 6 months which we were supposed to be living in that place when they left earlier. So we are paying what is our share. Now the company wants to use this place as a guest house. Initially it was a new guy from Bangalore who was staying with us for a month till he searched a place for himself. And now it is an intern from New Jersey who they want to put in with us. And we have to keep on adjusting with these people coming in every month. So my roommate has decided to move out and now is asking me as to what I would do. So, apart from all these job related frustrations which I have to manage now I have to find ways to arrange for the advance to pay for another acco and manage with the increased rent.

A typical case of FML 😦


12 thoughts on “A mess called my life

  1. Well i would like to give back… Am looking for an opportunity as u wud have already known. But nothing seems to work out.

    And regarding an acco just for myself … the exorbitant rent charged in this world’s biggest slum is the deterrent. A 1BHK unfurnished costs 14-16k in here. Furnished one will be 20k. Right now am paying 6k coz of the rent shared between 4 ppl.

  2. Hmmm dude.. I don’t even have the slightest of the imagination what you are going through (Nobody can…) even though I can say so many things… Its just you are stuck in that moment and it will be alright… It will be in the future..

  3. macha! I neither have your experience or your maturity man but things will work out with time 🙂

    Meanwhile ..try to spend time with pals who are at the same city , should help in taking your mind off a tad 🙂

  4. Hi Stier… Hope u get out of this soon… You’re from IIM – C right?? Its surprising to hear that these things have been happening with you… Its making me re-think my plans for MBA.

    • Well IIMC doesn’t have anything to do with this. It was my decision in choosing this organization and thus it is my error in judgement. IIMC actually gave us more options, but i ended up with this due to my wrong decision. So can’t blame anyone else apart from myself 🙂

      BTW … sorry, but cudn’t place u. Have we met?

      • Nope… I’m just a reader of your blog… 🙂 Got your link from Pagal Guy… I’m a Network Engineer in HCL Technologies and a contract employee for Cisco Systems… But rather than my work, I prefer to be addressed as a CAT aspirant… 🙂 Hoping to get into IIM soon! 🙂 Anyways… Wish u all the best… – Your well-wisher, Chella

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